I’m going to start this post off by telling you something honest. Here it is… I don’t normally step outside of my comfort zone. I’m an extremely cautious over-thinker. I don’t do many things spontaneously. Also, I deliberate for
hours days until whatever I was considering has passed and then I usually feel upset or disappointed about it.
Trips? Courses? Concerts? Networking events? I’ve somehow talked myself out of attending them all.
Of course, I’ve gone to a few events along the way, but I have probably talked myself out of more than I can count. There are times when my reasoning comes from being an introvert, but there have also be financial considerations to hold me back along the way. Seriously, I had a goal to see either San Francisco or Seattle in 2012 and I managed to convince myself that it just wasn’t possible and here I am still hoping to go someday. I won’t even mention how much I’d like to go to Italy!
Well, I found myself in a similar dilemma earlier this week. About two weeks ago I had learned that runDisney released the details for a Star Wars Half Marathon weekend in Disneyland. I can tell you that I freaked out. My nerdiness ran clear as I told everyone about it and that I just couldn’t imagine missing it. I have loved Star Wars my whole life and watched the movies too many times to count. I just had to go.
But then the fear crept up on me. I can’t afford to go… I can’t go with all my friends… I haven’t run a half marathon yet… Well, you get the picture. I basically started to talk myself out of it. I actually tired myself out thinking about all the “reasons” I couldn’t go. But, I also got myself to the point that I would be fine not going and “oh well maybe next year”. Until the morning that registration opened. I really tried to put it out of my mind, but my boyfriend was actually the one to remind me to register. I won’t lie, he basically called me a chicken and said to stop making excuses. He’s seen me talk myself out of a lot of things, but he knew I’d regret this. That’s when I decided… screw it, I’m going to sign up! I’m going to register for this half marathon and I’m finally going to see California. Yeah!
I was a little anxious as I waited for the registration to open… still had those negative thoughts in my head. But, I tried my hardest not to listen. Told myself that I won’t get anywhere or have any awesome experiences if I don’t step out of my comfort zone. But then I almost had another opportunity to back out – I wasn’t fast enough to register for the Rebel Challenge (run a 10K and a half marathon and get 3 amazing medals)(Yes, I know I’m crazy but I’m not the only one!). When I didn’t make it for the Challenge I actually sat staring at my computer trying to tell myself that it wouldn’t be worth it to go for the half marathon only. I know, what was I thinking?! The fear can get loud sometimes. But then I just said screw it and I registered for the half. Boom. Holy crap what have I done? Cue the anxiety. But also the excitement. Wow, I just did something I never would normally do. This is real now and this is good!
It’s now a couple days later and I am happy that I registered for the race. Sure, I’ll have to make some sacrifices and budget a bit more, but I’m finally going to get to see California (and palm trees!). And, I’m going to a pretty awesome event while I am at it. So, I couldn’t be more pleased with myself. Getting out of my comfort zone one small (or maybe this is kind of big) step at a time. It’s time to stop wishing and start doing! Who’s with me? 🙂
When was the last time you stepped out of your comfort zone? What did you do?