Ever feel like you were meant to do something better? But, also a little lost as to what that is at times?
I posed these questions on twitter last night and only received a few responses in return. So, either 99% of the people out there have it all figured out OR most don’t want to have to admit that they don’t. Trust me, I understand. It’s hard to admit to others (especially family) that you don’t know (or remember) what your dreams are… that you’re a little bit lost and still need to figure it out – in your early 30s. Sometimes the impression I get is less than positive, I can always read a face that is thinking ‘how do you not know by now?!” On the other hand, I have also encountered positive and encouraging responses to my journey. Occasionally, I will meet someone older who feels relieved that I speak so openly about the subject, believing that they were alone in their feelings of being lost.
At this point, it may seem strange to you that I feel like I am meant for something better even though I am not too sure what that is yet. But, that feeling is inside my heart and mind all of the time. I feel like I am supposed to contribute more both career and life-wise. Inside my heart I know that I could be part of something bigger and definitely have the skills to offer, but it can be difficult
to convince others of this with just a 2 page resume. There are also times, on this roller coaster of life, that I need reminding that there is more to me than what I am doing now – we all need a boost sometimes! I do so much research and reading that I can feel motivated in one breath and then uninspired in the next. This may just happen to me, but damn it can be challenging! So many things have to be done to keep my mind on the path, one of them being yoga. Yoga gives me such a nice break in my day and can boost me up, I really should be making more time for it.
I’m really trying to explore and brainstorm ideas right now with the help of a career search book that has exercises to work on. No major discoveries yet, but many pages in my notebook are filled… I am hoping to find some commonality in there somewhere. I have realized that I need to uncover/re-discover my dreams and also my values. Somewhere along the way, those got lost since I graduated university and had such big dreams of changing the HR world (some soul-crushing bosses may have gotten to me there). I really need to bring these things to the forefront of my mind, so that I can start to piece together what kind of career I am actually looking for – while keeping in mind that too much thinking can be bad and may also lead to that evil thing called rumination. Ruminating = bad… very bad. This is a road to avoid at all costs in a journey like this, because it does not lead anywhere good.
Shoot… I got side-tracked by some photos a friend posted on Facebook and now I am ruminating. What did I just write, self? I don’t listen well. Which leads me to my next thought… ever feel like life is just passing you by? Like you’re just a spectator watching everyone else lead the lives they want? Yeah. That’s me right now. ॐ
Tell me what you think readers!