It’s been six years.
Six years since you decided to go out drinking and driving. Which makes it six years since we met in a manner that was unpleasant and life-changing.
We don’t know each other, but I hated you for many years. I still hold a small amount of anger towards you, which I am reminded of when my pain ‘flares up‘ more than usual. I know I shouldn’t hate and I am aware that it is a strong word, but your actions that day completely changed my path – only now am I starting to see the positives from it.
Trust me when I say I am glad to be here. We were lucky, they all said. But, my life forever changed that day and I continue to deal with chronic pain, constantly working on my healing – both mind and body.
I don’t care where you are right now or what you are doing. But, I certainly hope you aren’t still drinking and driving and hurting anyone else.
It’s been six years and this is the first time I haven’t cried or yelled on this day. My anger towards the situation has lessoned and part of me feels like I am finally moving on – slowly, but it’s happening. I’m a work in progress.
Six crazy, life-changing, transformational years. Let’s hope by this time next year I’ll be more focused on the silly heart day than on the anniversary that need not be remembered in such a negative way. ॐ
So glad to have found yoga as part of this journey. What helps you deal with mind or body pain?
February 14, 2012 at 2:19 am
Sending you love + replacement thoughts of dark, liquidy chocolate. xo
February 14, 2012 at 10:45 am
Now those are thoughts I can love <3
February 14, 2012 at 2:56 am
Celebrate the growth, healing and movement you have accomplished. It is not “perfect healing” to a “perfect you” that you might imagine, it is the strong, real, perfect you.
February 14, 2012 at 11:47 am
Such a beautiful way to put it, thank you! : )
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